you don’t know me..

lagu ini enak bgt,,dinyanyiin ama ray charles,,musisi legendaris berkulit hitam yang buta, dinyanyikan berulang kali…tapi favorit gw,selain versi orisinalnya,adalah versi yang dinyanyiin ama michael buble (n aldo blaga jg)…

“You Don’t Know Me”

You give your hand to me
Then you say hello
I can hardly speak
My heart is beating so
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well
But you don’t know me

No, you don’t know the one
Who dreams of you at night
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I’m just a friend
That’s all I’ve ever been
‘Cause you don’t know me

I never knew
The art of making love
Though my heart aches
With love for you
Afraid and shy
I’ve let my chance to go by
The chance that you might
Love me, too

You give your hand to me
And then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
You’ll never never know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don’t know me

You give your hand to me, baby
Then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
No, no, you’ll never ever know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don’t know me

the end…

masa lalu…manis bgt kadang2 bwt dikenang..

stiap kali lo ngbuka album2 foto lo,,ato mngkin album d facebook,,angan lo trlempar ke beberapa waktu lampau..those beautiful memories..:)

and tentu aja,ad jg masa lalu yg klo lo tengok,rasany eneg bgt…masa2 buruk dlm hidup..tp klo mo jujur sih,,hal2 buruk jg ngbentuk kita mjd lebih baik kan?idealnya sih..

tp gmn ttg masa lalu yg sbnernya blon jelas bakal jd good or bad memories??

yet to be determined ..

lo ngliat ke waktu2 yg udah berlalu itu…

ada saat2 lo tertawa bersama..

ada saat2 dimana lo seneng bgt, krn dia trnyata mau pas lo ajak jalan brg (biarpun dia bawa temen2 segenknya)..

ada saat2 lo sibuk stngah mati bwt keliatan pinter dpan dia..

ada saat2 dmn dia kliatan lembut bgt…ga spt dia yg tough..tp lo suka hal itu..

ada saat2 lo pergi ninggalin dia tanpa sebab yg jelas..

ada saat2 lo kehilangan kata2 depan dia..

dan ada saat2 lo mesti nentuin…ending kenangan lo itu bagus ato ga..

smua org harus bangun dari mimpinya..n gw msti tau,,kenangan gw trhadap dia, bakal jd bagus ato ga,..biar gw bner2 dpt hikmahnya..

n yup,,gw ngbuletin tekad gw…klo gw ktmu dia hari itu,,gw bakal ngungkapin smuanya..smuanya yg selama ini gw pendam..

gw tau,dia lg deket ama org itu..mngkin ga cm deket,,tp mngkin hatiny bwt org itu..

tp mngkin aja dia pnya sdikit hati bwt gw,,ato mngkin dl dia pnya perasaan k gw..mngkin jg dari dulu emg ga…

…

skali lg,,gw msti tau…

i’m gonna confront her..

look her in her eyes…tell her, how much i care about her..

how i can’t erase her from my mind..

how i want to hold her hand…(tp hrs jd muhrim dl)

how i want to hear her stories…her bad times, her good times..

how i always smile if i see her, wandering around

how i love her soft voice when i call her at midnight..

how i want to learn to love her favourite jukebox (which are dominated by hiphop and i hate them-a lot)

how i want to tell her, it’s okay..everything will be fine when she thinks everything in life against her…

how i want to make her feel comfort about herself..

how i never feel this kind of feelings with another woman…

and how i want to tell her,i’m sorry for being such a bad friend..

and maybe, i finally can decide…my memories with her,,shall remains forever or be the things that i just have to put inside a box called pandora..

…

gw nyiapin kejutan gw..

gw dnger dia lg dsana..

hmmmpphh…fiuuh…

…

dr jauh..kdngeran sayup2 tawa dia…

i can’t help myself from smiling….tawa dia slalu enak didengar..

.. gw mempercepat langkah gw…

i can see her now…gw nglambain tangan gw..

dia ngliat gw…trus dia blg:”halo..”

gw lgsg ngreply:”halo jg..”

n mata gw tiba2 trtuju pd org itu,,org di sebelahnya…

pantes dia ktawa lebar kyk gitu..

gw dah lama denger klo mrk lg deket..and mrk brduaan,,di malam minggu…

and ternyata….

it’s over…isn’t it? smuany brakhir bahkan sblon gw mulai..sblon gw blg,,sblon dia bner2 tau…

my memories with her…for now…belongs to a box called pandora…i wont open it..

mungkin,,cm mungkin,,,gw bakal ngliat lg ke belakang,,n bersyukur hal itu terjadi ama gw…tp skali lg,,cm mungkin…

seseorg pernah blg k gw, time is funny…

kadang2,hal2 yg kita pandang buruk, trnyata adalah hal2 yg trbaik yg bisa trjadi pd kita….(ajaran agama jg )

tp saat ini,,gw rasa gw cm bakal ngubur memori gw ama dia…

-selesai-

oke..cerita ini adalah ending cerita gw setelah 3,5 taon…she’s my biggest storyline,so far..saatnya membuat lompatan…saatnya melihat ke depan…

tp smbari mencari cara untuk menemukan the one, saat ini, ga ada salahnya gw memilih untuk tenggelam dlm lantunan lagu yg rasany diciptakan bwt gw…enak jg…

You give your hand to me, baby
Then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away
Beside the lucky guy
No, no, you’ll never ever know
The one who loves you so
Well, you don’t know me

(ray charles – you don’t know me)

di ujung jalan itu…setahun kemarin

18 april 2009,,1 taon lalu…hari itu biasanya hari yg ditunggu oleh tiap mahasiswa yg kesulitan nghadepin dunia akademis…hari yg ga akan bisa gw lupain..

cw ini…cw yg slalu gw suka….n bahkan gw dah ga inget sberapa lama gw suka cw ini..yg pasti, wktu itu, snyum dia kerasa indah bgt…tatapan matany seperti slalu penuh makna (eaah)

tp emg, gw pnya kecenderungan ga berani ama cw yg gw suka..n sjak gw sadar gw suka cw ini, gw ngjauhin dia..i dreamt about her a lot…

n bahkan gw smpet ngimpiin dia nikah ama org laen…n mood gw lgsg rusak hari itu jg

cw ini ibarat wanita yg ga mngkin bs diraih…she’s smart, pretty, a lil bit introvert, pure amazing….dia itu mimpi indah..

n sperti smua mimpi yg lain..pada akhirnya bakal brakhir jg…

wisuda kan brarti gw bakal naek satu step lg dlm hidup gw…kt org2 k dunia riil..

n setiap org memang pernah mmbuat kputusan bodoh dalam hidupnya…

keputusan bodoh gw itu muncul malem menjelang hari h wisuda…

gw ngesms dia…mnta dia dtg bwt foto brg ama gw di lokasi wisuda…

graduation day should be one of those unforgettable moment..

mine’s definitely unforgettable…not in the happiest way…

she didn’t show up…

gw mikir..mngkin macet kali ya??? tp dr jam 8 ampe j stg3 dia ga dtg kok…

mngkin dia blon siap ktmu kluarga gw?? mksd gw sih it foto bareng bukan foto ama keluarga gw,bukan foto studio,cm foto biasa…mngkin dy salah ngerti…

later…i did take a photograph with her…i asked her why she didnt show up…

she answered with her lowered voice…she said she had a thing to do…

ga…dia emg ga mau dtg….gw emg msti nghadepin kenyataan…

she just didn’t want to show up…

klo dia berhalangan,,dia pasti sms….tp dia ga sms….dia emg ga mau ngasi harapan…

19 april 2010

di tengah terik matahari…gw k lokasi wisuda gw…

and then i see my “last year me”..

i was standing there….in the crowd of my friends… at that moment, i felt what people called as ‘broken into pieces’ heart

the day that i should be happy…and definitely it’s not her fault…

perasaan kan ga bisa dipaksa…

“di ujung jalan itu setahun kemarin….ku terdiam…

ku menunggumu bidadari belahan jiwaku…”

20 april 2010…

gw mnunggu saat2 gw bakal bs btul2 blg dengan snyum di wajah gw

“hal2 bodoh yg kita perbuat lebih baik dari hal2 yg ga kita lakukan”

skrg gw blon bisa blg kyk gitu…

what i did was stupid…at some point, i did regret it…but as time goes by, i didnt regret it….time is unpredictable….sedetik tuh cukup bwt ngubah sgalanya..

“emang bakal slalu ada kykny…org itu..org yg lo sukai..lo anggep smpurna..n lo tetep nganggep mrk smpurna…ga peduli walaupun mereka ga ngebales perasaan lo….”

oh no…apa gw …??

4 stages of SAT night

malem minggu ngapain ya??

arrgghh…malem minggu gw nelangsa…

buset dah…masak malming ama org2 ini lagi…

akrab ama pernyataan di atas?

gw jg akrab kok…apalagi am malming gw nelangsa…:(

i’m gonna tell you guys a secret….a secret that has been told thousand of years…secretly..from ancestors to their great great grand son…

it’s called the 4 stages of Sat Night…

btul…ini rahasia turun temurun…tanggung sndiri resikonya baca postingan ini…

klo jantungny ga kuat,,mending berhenti skarang deh…

tarik nafas (hhhmmmmpppphhhhh………….)

eughhh (nahan 40 detik)

….

ad 2 opsi…keluar lewat mulut (bunyiny : huaaaah) ato lewat sesuatu yg klo keluar lwt sana bunyinya tuuuut…

stage 1:…

saturday night…

kecanduan malam minggu soalnya lo ga sndiri…brsama pendamping yg mukany bikin lo adem…lo n pasangan bingung bwt nentuin mo jalan2 kmana2 ya???

waktu, lokasi, bahkan angkotpun serasa milik lo b2….

stage 2:

saturgay night

adalah sbuah keadaan dimana lo msti malem minggu am temen2 lo yg sama jenis kelaminnya..seringkali terjadi abis lo ditolak ato putus..temen2 lo yg kebtulan jomblo jg ngajakin lo jalan2…dilakukan scara masif dan biasany berujung nympah..

dlm bbrp case,diakhiri dgn obrolan2 khas jomblo –> masalah cw/cowo…poor thing

stage 3:

saturdying night..

bayangkan diri lo berjalan sndirian…..nyusurin pantai,,ke toko buku,,ato nonton film di 21…inilah saturdying night…lo sbnernya dying inside karena lo sndirian…but at least..di tmpat2 itu,lo bisa nemuin org2 yg snasib n tntu saja,org2 yg lagi bersaturday night ria jg…and of course, you should be jealous to those lucky couple

stage 4:

saturDAMN night

still you’re alone…but dude…you dont have any money…duit dah ngepas bgt…mau keluar jg susah…dah malem,…acara tv jelek n mmbosankan…

lo nyalain komputer…..maen inet (it jg klo lo ada) ato maen football manager??

lo bangun keesokan harinya n seakan-akan kmaren tuh bukan malming…

which one was yours?

Monkey to Millionaire – Strange is the song in our conversation

Kmaren abis dari Ganesha Music Event…trus ad salah satu band favorit gw, Monkey to Millionaire (MTM)…pas dnger salah satu lagu,,,pikiran gw melayang ke kejadian 3 taonan lalu…:)

lowered down our voices –>

late night conversation…gw jd inget klo dulu bukan lagu strange yg ngakhirin conversation kami,tp pulsa abis atau batere low (ato jangan2 dia emg sngaja matiin hpny y????)…pokokny lg asik2 ngobrol..then i heard no more words coming up from you…(soalnya baterenya abis)..

after few hours of our conversation -> iya…biasanya dulu ngobrolny berjam2…dulu inget dia sering diem bentar (kykny ngantuk ato bosen kali si dia..)

couples of stories has already been told
and few things about you has already been told –> haha..padahal sbenerny gw brtpuk sebelah tangan n sbnernya klo dari sisi dia,kmngkinan dia lg bete…tp tah knapa,,bagian crita2 dia kok krasa menyenangkan bgt bwt diinget ya?

btw, enjoy the lyrics (all the courtesy milikny MTM)

MTM – Strange is the song in our conversation

walking’ on the edge of an empty pool
we were talking’ bout something it was fun it was cool
lowered down our voices, we were holding our laugh cause the moon was standing there with our own noise

your last thing about boyfriend and girlfriend things into our late night conversations
you sounded like you’re so interested so i’d be like i wanna share it with you

after few hours of our conversation, you told me you only sleep when there’s someone singin’
so i sang to you the song called ‘Strange’
and i heard no more words coming’ up from you
i heard no more words coming’ up from you

Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation
Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation

couples of stories has already been told
and few things about you has already been told
you sound so quiet so i whispered to you
‘well i guess that you have found your world, yeah’

couples of your stories has already been told
and few things about you has already been told
well i guess it’s time to end so i said to you
‘i hope we could talk again someday’s

after few hours of our conversation, you told me you only sleep when there’s someone singin’
so i sang to you the song called ‘Strange’
and i heard no more words coming’ up from you
i heard no more words coming’ up from you

Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation
Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation

after few hours of our conversation, you told me you only sleep when there’s someone singin’
so i sang to you the song called ‘Strange’
and i heard no more words coming’ up from you
i heard no more words coming’ up from you

Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation
Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation

Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation
Oh ‘Strange’ is the song in our conversation

couples of stories has already been told
and few things about you has already been told